living the dream that doesn't feel like one

Being a professional creative?
It’s hard. It will try to kill you.
It will make you question things.

“Am I really for this?”
“Did I make the right decision?”
“When will I stop being in survival mode?”
“Why am I not like the other creatives?”

It will make you compare your life to other people’s.
It will make you look down on yourself. It will make you feel that you should’ve listened to your parents when they told you to get a “job.”

It sucks to be a professional creative.

You get a project.
You work hard on it.
You try to meet the deadline.
You finish it.

And then you wait for a month or 2 to get paid.
And before you have the money, since you spent most of your time doing that one project, you are indebted big time.

People see your work and your life you try to make look good.
They say you’re living the dream, when in fact you really don’t feel like it. 

It’s freaking hard.
But if you feel like it’s your calling, you fight for it.
You power through. You do things scared.
You do things anyway.
Because what you create might not matter to you, but for someone somewhere, it will.